It easier to watch porn and eat chocolate

But it's so sad. Ultimately what I really want is to have healthy connected relationships, take good care of myself, like get 8 hours of sleep, eat healthy and manage my emotions well.

Is it so boring to contemplate living a normal drama-free life and not feel like I'm subsumed what it means to be a cool ultra-hip metro out gay man?

This is the beginning of becoming adult.

The coop might fall through. I might have to start looking for a new place in Jamaica Estates closer to the F train. Taking a bus was way too much drama.

I am falling in love with Tom.

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