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A Day of Compassion

Passion with.  In this case, passion with self.  A day of being compassionate to me.  Holding myself with care, concern and love.

I'm usually tough on myself.  Goal-driven, a point A to point B agenda to each day.  I often take on what seems to be "required" of me with so much anxiety it squeezes the life out of the room (and maybe myself?)

Today, I'm going to give myself a wide berth.  If I feel weak and tired, I can even excuse myself from brunch and just go home and rest.  If I feel upset about the way I've been spoken to, I can address it, ask for clarification from the speaker with respect for the other, and with deep care for myself.  If I need to put my feet on the seat, I'll say, "I need to put my feet up."  If I can only do half of the meeting, then need to lie down, then that's what I need to do. 

Of course, I'm looking at the words I'm typing with total dread.  What if I get ejected from society for asking for what I need?  What if I am labeled as a troublesome person and people eventually abandon care and concern for me?

The truth is, I think people respect those who first show themselves care and concern.  Without that, how can I show that respect to others?

Sunday musings.

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