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And then there's reality

When I woke up on Friday, I had a clear picture of the weekend.  As Friday unfurled, the plan changed dramatically.  I was no longer going up to my alma mater to spend time with the new president, the Council and students.  Instead, it was going to be a weekend of self-care, tests, evaluation and rest rest rest. 

Of course, I was disappointed on so many levels.  Helping others is my bloodwork.  And being there for my tribe is probably one of the few things I do well and which feeds me deeply.  I was so looking forward to it.  And yet, when my caregivers said, you're staying here and we're taking care of you, I had to comply.  It's the age-old, "put the oxygen on yourself and then put it on your child."  I can only be there for others if I take care of myself.

I'm working on coming to peace with that.  I also had to leave work early on Friday anyway, which also bummed me out.  And yet, what compassion I experienced from all the stakeholders.  The only one who expects me to be superhuman, is me.

Here's to being human.  And here's to the laughter of the universe around our plans.

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