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Staying in Balance

Sometimes I want to speed ahead.  Other times I just want to hide under the covers.

Balancing those energies is the trick to maintaining a useful and effective life.  Of course there are times when either is the right thing to do. 

There are times to rest.  When the doctors said they wanted to keep me in the hospital until Thursday, I almost saw red.  And my doctor had already prefaced it by, "You're not going to like what I'm going to say..."  However, I'm doing my best to rest quietly even though I fought to do that at home.  I'll be back to full energy if I rest now, than if I push too hard today.

And, if I fail to get the steel cut oats into the hot water and turn down the flame, there may be a kitchen disaster.  So I did rush to get the right chemistry going on the stove.  Even then, I was careful, since injuries are a no-no for me.  So I rushed with thoughtfulness.

As I write, I let the words flow onto the page easily.  And then, I pause.  I look out the window at the gorgeous blue sky, stretch to keep the blood flowing through body (especially brain and lungs), and then speed type some more.  May it be so with all my tasks: job hunting or otherwise.  Breathe.

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